If you're reading this, you've probably already seen my news. I haven't had still time to process it all so if you continue to read...you're agreeing to process with me :)
Last Tuesday, I woke up with chest pain. Last Thursday, I called my primary to make an appointment and they send me to the Emergency Room.
In the ER, they run a bunch of tests and scan my chest. In room 17 in the ER, doctor comes in and says they found a mass and I had to stay over night, so they wheel me away to room 644. (I'm making that number up)
Can I just say...being contained in a small little box with a curtain separating some other diseased roommate and I isn't my idea of a good time. Anyways! Many phone calls, flowers and visitors later, the nurse comes in and says my biopsy is at 4:00 the next day and I can't eat or drink until then....what. But at least I had flowers...
So sleeptime comes and it's so true when people say that the nurses will wake you up just to make sure you're sleeping okay...
Morning hits...I'm asking Jesus constantly, "why 4:00? I had hoped this biopsy would be sooner!"...go figure, the Holy Spirit's in full gear...here comes the nurse, "Madison, we got your biopsy moved. They're on their way to come get you now" WHAT! :)
God is cool and I'm beside myself how anybody could go without Him. There's a fun life that you can live for yourself but there's an even MORE fun and greater life waiting when we live for Christ.
Wheel me away...take me to dr.Anil...knock me out and needle me! Back to my room to wait some more, wait some more, lungs didn't collapse, I can go home!!! My family wheels me away and brings me home!
Following Wednesday, primary doctor appointment. "You have cancer-lymphoma"I can honestly say this was probably one of the most exciting days of my life. And I say this not to seem, "oh maddie, shes great" but truly to say this...I knew that God was about to work HUGE. and that He had a big plan involving some great people. I knew that God was going to go crazy with this..reaching people I've never even met more, bringing people to a relationship with Him and a plan to overall make Him famous. And I am still completely beside myself to this night that He is using me to do something so big for Him. I am honorably excited! And I couldn't be more truthful with you.
As of tonight, it's been a week. There's been...Dr. Appts: 10"Praying for you"'s: over 147 (in text/FB comment alone)Flower bouquets: 7Cards mailed: 9Reach outs from people I've never met: 4Encouraging voicemails/phone calls: over 15Verses sent: 21Church congregations praying: 5 (known)Other statuses asking for prayer for me: 11And..My page alone, over 833 "likes" on cancer related topics..
Tell me that I'm crazy for counting...but I'm ECSTATIC that God chose me for this. and the amount of encouragement and love that He has cast upon my soul is remarkable. I wake up every morning knowing that I'm being prayed for and my Spirit is automatically connected with Christ and I feel joy, and peace and love. HE is why I'm excited and ready for this.
Shouldn't we always be lifting each other up like this, though? Accepting a life to live for Christ is accepting a whole new family. Our brothers and sisters should wake up every morning being able to feel and know the way that I feel and know. I don't want to be lazy anymore! I want other followers to wake up and KNOW that they are being prayed for, KNOW that their Spirit is loved and not alone and best of all...know that as followers and transformed Spirits of God, that we are one. We are united.
Father, Son, Holy Spirit...He is a community in and of Himself.We are made in His image, we are MADE for community.We are MADE to encourage, reminding each other daily that we are praying for the other.. asking each other what can be prayed for.
When was the last time that I felt I was being prayed for this much? Freshman year of high schoolWhen was the last time that I asked and reminded someone I was continually praying for a specific situation daily? Not in a while.
So, I will no longer wait until it takes something huge and traumatic to remind my family that I'm praying constantly for them! I want my sisters and brothers waking up, knowing and feeling they're being prayed for. Feeling this peace and joy daily, no matter what's going on! Finding the Light of Christ through any darkness.
God is good!!!!!
Biopsy in the morning to determine the stage of cancer.10am oncologist appt on friday!